Week 5, Saturday, dungeon: Waver.

[thesettingsun]

I'm so glad you're alright, Sensei.

[That's what Dazai says the moment he sees Waver, before he even has a chance to register what kind of expression is on his face.

He's sitting on the floor in his cell. It's uncomfortable, but that's not important.]

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[londonstar]

[ dazai is most definitely not okay. he should still be in bed, and he recognizes that he probably has a concussion, but... ]

Why? Why did you do that!?

[thesettingsun]

They were going to vote for you or me at that rate, and I wanted you to live.

[So that's what he decided to do. He doesn't regret it.

Dazai is okay.]

[londonstar]

You're a fucking idiot! You're a fucking goddamn dumbass! You shouldn't have-- you shouldn't have fucking done that!

[ he throws himself at the bars. if there weren't any, he'd be trying to punch dazai right now. ]

You're important! To Evan! To Eichi! To me!

[thesettingsun]

[The bars rattle. Dazai shrinks back from them despite himself.]

...Am I really important to you, Sensei?

[He's grateful just for a word of praise. He doesn't think Waver really cares about him that much.]

[londonstar]

You once complained that I was too sentimental. [ he laughs, full of bitterness

defeated, he presses his forehead against the bars ] You're right. You're absolutely right.

[thesettingsun]

It's a little late, but... I'm really happy to hear that.

[While he's waiting for an execution. Still, it's better than never hearing it.

Dazai slips his hand through the bars. If Waver will allow him to hold his hand, that'd make him even happier.]

[londonstar]

[ waver's not good with physical affection. as a magus, things like emotions and affection are put aside for the sake of becoming better than everyone else.

if that meant destroying others, then a magus should be able to do that. because of that, waver always lived in high alert. he never had time for things such as sentimentality...

but now, separated by jail bars, waver will give in to dazai's request, and hold his hand back. weakly, he squeezes it. ]

I'm sorry. Because of my failure...this happened to you.

[thesettingsun]

It's my fault as much as yours, Sensei. Or - even more so.

[Because he knew, somewhere in the back of his mind, that they should search the room further. He knew and he disregarded it because Sensei said otherwise.

He can't say that out loud. Waver would just blame himself more.]

It won't be so bad. I've died once already.

[londonstar]

[ and that makes waver let out a breathy laugh.

he doesn't look happy, though. ]

I'm starting to think that this means I have a pattern in my taste in men. Stupid historical figures.

[thesettingsun]

[Sensei implied that he liked Dazai...!

he's gonna doki until he dies t b h]

All those stupid historical figures should be honored. I know I am ♥

[londonstar]

Hah!

[ well, at least waver's laughing. ]

If only we hadn't been so damn stupid. If only Zelos hadn't run his damn mouth. [ he squeezes dazai's hand again ] Things should've gone differently.

[thesettingsun]

[Laughing is good, even if it's wry.]

Like, we would never have been this emotionally honest with each other without an impending execution kind of gone differently?

[londonstar]

I think I would have preferred not being honest if it meant you got to live another day.

[thesettingsun]

I might prefer the confession. Everyone dies sometime, not everyone gets to hear that you care about them.

[also, useless bisexual]

[londonstar]

But what if we can't reach the happy ending? What if...I can't save you or Reyna or anyone else in this castle? If this is all for naught then...

[ he doesn't want to continue talking about it. he doesn't want to imagine a result where none of the dead come back. ]

[thesettingsun]

Then we tried our best. Some stories don't get happy endings. That doesn't mean they should just end in the middle.

...If you show up on the other side anytime soon, I'll have to publicly embarrass you.

[There's no use threatening him with punching him: Dazai hits where it hurts.]

[londonstar]

Don't you fucking dare!

[ at least waver is still able to feel flustered??? ]

[thesettingsun]

[Flustered is a good emotion! It's not self-loathing!]

I don't know about the layout of the other side, but I'm sure plenty of people would notice if I just kissed you in public...

[londonstar]

A-absolutely not! Don't even think about doing that! Do you have no sense of privacy?!

[ HE'S SO ?????? ]

[thesettingsun]

You'd better not die then~

[dazai will use all the weapons in his arsenal to keep waver alive

and most of them are gay]

[londonstar]

Tch-- I already got a threat from Reyna and one from you. Now I absolutely have to stay alive.

[ ...but then his expression falls. it's impossible to stay flustered for too long when you remember that the person you like is about to get executed. ]

You don't have to continue calling me Sensei. [ ... ] My name is Waver. Waver Velvet.

[thesettingsun]

What do you want me to call you? Velvet-san? Just Waver?

[He kind of likes calling him Sensei - it's something no one else here really calls him, as far as Dazai knows - but it's no good if Waver dislikes it.]

[londonstar]

Waver. If you really want to continue calling me Sensei, then I don't mind. But...

[ he hesitates. it's difficult to let himself be seen so vulnerable. ]

But you deserve more than just knowing my title.

[thesettingsun]

Waver.

...I don't regret doing this for you.

[He regrets not looking longer, and he regrets not being able to point a finger towards a guilty party.

But he doesn't regret using his life to keep Waver alive.]

[londonstar]

You--

[ waver doesn't know what to say. he doesn't know how to feel. once again he feels like he's 19, way over his head in a war that he should have never joined in the first place.

'live. see it to the end, and tell my story.'

waver barely registers the fact that he's crying for the first time in ten years. ]